As a mum I long for each of my children to be spiritually rich. In the light of what’s happened, my heart has felt broken as I’ve watched them hurting. When they’ve been in agony I’ve been in agony. As they are suffer, my heart has smashed into a thousand pieces. I have longed to take their pain as they’ve struggled to make sense of it all.
As I hugged my child last night and felt her distress, I felt so helpless. I felt so hurt and overwhelmed for her. As we cried huddled together we talked about grace covering it all.
When my children hurt because of parental failings, I feel utterly paralysed by it, and the only thing I can do is cry out to God. Our prayer for our children is that their pain will be used by God. We pray that it will fling them to their ultimate Father who will turn mess into order, and pain into knowing Him more fully. I pray that my children will see the richness and beauty of God’s grace in the messiness and pain that this life brings.
Sin has caused devastation in our family that I’m often tempted to panic over, but one day it will be righted. As much as I try, I can’t take away pain from my children, but I can pray that it shapes them and moulds them into something beautiful and godly, equipping them to help and support others in the struggles and disappointments of life.
I know how fiercely I love all of my children, but my love appears dim compared to the love of their Heavenly Father. This gives me confidence to say: “Lord, use the pain and heartache of our failure to make each one dependant on your love and grace, then use them in whatever way you choose for your glory!”
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.”
Dark emotions can make me panic. God tells me to trust him in every situation. I can hand my hurting struggling children over to him because he is the expert mender and the ultimate restorer. Thankyou Lord.