God is kind and wise in all that he allows, and through this trial God has grown me. As the weeks and the months have rolled by, God has been at work in my heart changing my desires and my perspectives so that I can now say that I’m thankful for all that he has taught me through adversity.
I’ve learned more about love in the last couple of years than at any other time in my life, and I thank God for it.
I am understanding that the depth of God’s love doesn’t hold anything back for itself. True love is willing to give up the right to remember the wrong that’s been committed, and demands that I now respond in a way that shows I have deliberately forgotten those sins that have wounded me.
1 Corinthians 10:24
“No one should seek their own good, but the good of others.”
And as I remember how unfair it feels, my love for Jesus has grown. As I have felt the injustice that’s been meted out to me, I have felt embarrassed and small as I have meditated on the magnitude of Christ’s injustice. All I can do is run to him for safety.
The response to my own hurt is the measure of my love for Jesus. As I react to those who have hurt me, I thank Jesus that he covers me with his righteousness.
As I reflect on my weakness and failure, I have come to rely on the strength that only God can give which enables me to love my husband more and more. He has become increasingly precious to me, and as I remember the past, I’m now filled with thankfulness that God is continuing to show me a better way – I will always be a work in progress, but by God’s grace he will continue to shape me to become more like himself.
“and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.”
Love brings healing to our souls and is a gift that will never end. God broke me in order to grow me, and the lessons I have learned are so rich, I wouldn’t exchange it for anything.
I love my husband with all my heart and I am so excited as I see his love for his saviour grow and grow. God has blessed us more abundantly than we can ask or imagine and my job now is to wholeheartedly love him until death parts us.
Love is not feeling, but a conscious decision to do another good: no matter what… But wonderfully and gloriously my feelings have more than caught up, and I can once again delight in the husband God has given me.