I have done a lot of pondering over these last months about the situation that I have found myself in. There are so many facets of emotion that come to the fore without invitation like an unwanted guest. These emotions barge their way rudely into my thinking and spoil my equilibrium. Once there, my whole outlook on life can alter, and my whole mindset changes from calm to overwhelming anxiety. This in turn affects my relationship with my husband and can be extremely unhelpful and damaging.
I am learning slowly to recognise satan’s lies. In the beginning I swallowed them hook, line and sinker, and before I knew what was happening, Satan was accusing me and making me believe his pernicious untruths. Whatever his lies were, the end result was despair, guilt and blackness. Joy in the Lord was cruelly taken, and I would often feel overwhelmed and riddled with anxiety.
Satan’s lies went something like this:
- The church will never recover from this.
- We are now lepers
- Our children will never recover.
- Our non – Christian friends will now never come to Christ.
- The shame will never go away.
- I will never be happy again.
- We won’t cope financially.
- All is lost
How these lies put me in a pit. There was truth in all I believed, but when God’s grace is left out of the equation, condemnation prevails.
Satan loves to leave out grace… He wants us to despair and feel hopeless and this is where I wallowed for quite a while. The black despair that I felt paralysed me.
After wise counsel, I began to recognise Satan’s lies. Bit by bit, I began to understand the subtlety of his accusations. My husband had blown it with devastating consequences but it didn’t end in condemnation. Repentance opens the gates of God’s grace which brings forgiveness, hope and healing. Satan stops at condemnation, God stops with forgiveness and reconciliation
I love the hymn that says:
Satan is wanting to rob us of joy , he wants us to become ineffective for the gospel. And in some ways Satan’s accusations are absolutely right! We are great failures and we can never do anything right. We are guilty and condemned. But that’s where Satan stops.
We need to remind him LOUDLY that Christ has taken that condemnation and nailed it to the cross, and when Satan accuses, we need to shout the end of the story to him! He knows it already and hates it… So when we are tempted to believe his lies, we need to shout out that Christ has won and we no longer stand accused! We are guilty, but Christ has taken our punishment. We deserve hell but through Christ we have his forgiveness and hope of heaven.
Yes my husband has sinned, but God’s plans will not be thwarted. Despite our sin, he is working out his plans and purposes for his glory, and will hone us on the way. I am so thankful to God for his grace and mercy, and for his many wonderful promises.
I just love this verse in Isaiah 44:22
“I have swept away your offences like a cloud, your sins like the morning mist.
Return to me, For I have redeemed you.”
Satan is the great deceiver and comes to us quietly and with great subtlety. If we believe his lies he has won a victory. We need to be alert and on our guard so that we can stand up against him. Ephesians chapter 6 is key. I have a wonderful friend who tells me constantly to “suit up.” We need to put that armour on so that we can stand up against the devil and win the battle !
“Finally be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.put on the full armour of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armour of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled round your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the sheild of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the spirit, which is the word of God.”
I need constant prayers that I will be alert. Like Peter, if I look to myself, I will drown. Praying for God’s help hour by hour.